I am having ANOTHER flare-up of my Trigeminal Neuralgia and it f**king sucks. Debating going to the ER for pain relief. I never worry about being treated like a drug addict when I ask for pain assistance for this, or if my Osteoarthritis and hip-related pain issues become overwhelming. When it comes to my Fibromyalgia though, I hesitate because I’ve seen the looks in the eyes of some of the nurses and doctors:
“Oh, look…another drug addict looking for a fix”
“she doesn’t even look like she’s in pain…and her BP didn’t register very high either”
I work hard on educating the medical professionals I see when I encounter this type of discrimination. The problem is, it’s often hard to advocate for yourself when you’re IN that kind of pain and seeking help. You tend to be defensive and desperate and the idea of having to prove your legitimacy is simply ludicrous. I just want someone to help me manage my pain dammit….we can talk about it all when I feel better.
So, I don’t know where tonight is going to land me….home in bed, or at the ER. I just hope my stoopid face decides to smarten up on its own so I don’t have to do no ‘splainin’ to anyone. But you know the drill…
there is always hope