I am having ANOTHER flare-up of my Trigeminal Neuralgia and it f**king sucks. Debating going to the ER for pain relief. I never worry about being treated like a drug addict when I ask for pain assistance for this, or if my Osteoarthritis and hip-related pain issues become overwhelming. When it comes to my Fibromyalgia though, I hesitate because I’ve seen the looks in the eyes of some of the nurses and doctors:
“Oh, look…another drug addict looking for a fix”
“she doesn’t even look like she’s in pain…and her BP didn’t register very high either”
I work hard on educating the medical professionals I see when I encounter this type of discrimination. The problem is, it’s often hard to advocate for¬†yourself when you’re IN that kind of pain and seeking help. You tend to be defensive and desperate and the idea of having to prove your legitimacy is simply ludicrous. I just want someone to help me manage my pain dammit….we can talk about it all when I feel better.
So, I don’t know where tonight is going to land me….home in bed, or at the ER. I just hope my stoopid face decides to smarten up on its own so I don’t have to do no ‘splainin’ to anyone. But you know the drill…
there is always hope

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