Oh my goodness y’all….I am SO sorry that it’s been so long since my last post!!! I have been so busy since my hip surgery and recovery and every time I would come to sit and write about what I was up to, I’d get busy doing something else, and poof! Away would go my good intentions. I’m so many months behind that I almost feel like I should delete this whole blog and start over again and that way, no one would know how negligent I’ve been…well, except for you…and me. Damn it Jim!! I guess I’ll just hope my apology is enough and then try and get you caught up on the last billion months since the last post. Speaking of….hang on while I go read it, so I know where to pick up again. Be right back!
* pretend you hear birds chirping and singing while you wait*
Wow…I really DID leave you hanging!! Let me start by saying the new hip is wonderful, it works well and any and all pain that I thought was coming from the new hip is actually related to the muscles that were cut and replaced. Yep, this wanna-be doctor was fooled completely…I was sure that the popping and snapping that was going on was related to the new hip, but when a few sessions of physiotheraphy and the first set of x-rays after surgery took place, I could see that it was a tendon “snapping” as it moved over the new hip…and it disappeared very quickly as my physio progressed. Once I realized my new hip wasn’t going to fall out (a silly but common fear), I was able to attack physio a bit more agressively – or at least as agressively as possible considering the state of my other joints and the arthritis I have in them.
Gradually, as I walked more and did more exercising, everything felt more comfortable. At my last appointment with my surgeon, Dr. Burnett, on August 10th, he released me from his care as everything he needed to do is done. He said that my left hip isn’t ready for surgery yet and as for my knee and the pain and “collapsing” sensation I get, all he sees is some “minor” arthritis, and there’s nothing he can do for it from a surgical viewpoint. More on this later….
So now what? Well, this blog has always stated it’s about Chronic Pain, Chronic Fatigue and Invisible Illness. The reason for that is because my body never fails to deliver when it comes to one of those categories.
“But Pamela” I hear you ask…”what else could possibly be wrong with you?”.
“ha ha ha haaaaaa” I laugh maniacally in reply. “haaa haaa haaahahahahhahahaahaha”. Okay…perhaps a bit too maniacal. Well, the next condition I want to discuss is called Trigeminal Neuralgia. Don’t hurt yourself…Tri-gem-i-nal Neur-al-gia. It is often called “the suicide disease” because it’s so painful – it’s a chronic pain disorder that affects the trigeminal nerve in the face. In my case, when the pain flares up, it feels like a deep ache that goes into my sinuses, my cheekbone, my eye socket and sometimes into the back of my throat. Along with the ache will be sharp stabbing pain, but it’s the aching that is so horrible – I can’t even describe what it feels like, except it’s pure hell. I’ve tried ice and heat to make it go away, but nothing touches it – and none of my drugs work on it…not even my opioid medications. I literally have to let it run it’s course…sometimes it takes a day, sometimes it’s days….sometimes I think it’s going away but then it flares up again…it’s an absolute nightmare and I understand why people kill themselves.
So, why am I telling you this? Because this is one of the next battles to be faced (ha ha) and dealt with regarding my health. I saw my Physiatrist (a Doctor who specializes in Pain Management) today, Dr. Paul Winston, to discuss something he suggested once before for my Trigeminal Neuralgia (aka TN) – Botox! It has nothing to do with making me look younger, but when used for medicinal purposes, Botox can deaden the Trigeminal nerve, putting an end to pain and continuing flare ups. It’s not a guarantee and it’s not a permanent solution, but if it does work, it can offer some long term relief, with the option of repeat usage. And, when it’s done right, there’s no need to use it on both sides of the face to “balance out the features” because there will be no change in facial structure as there would be if I were using it for cosmetic purposes. Dr. Winston is working with his supplier to get more in, and when that happens, we’ll schedule an app’t and I’ll give it a go.
While I was there, we also discussed the issues with my knee – he had a Resident shadowing him named Chris, so I allowed Chris to do an examination of the knee and ask all the questions while Dr. Winston pulled up my most recent x-rays on his computer (the ones that my surgeon, Dr. Burnett ordered for our last visit). And here’s something interesting…Dr. Burnett considered what he saw as “mild” arthritis in the knee – and nothing that he could do anything about from a surgical viewpoint. Dr. Winston however showed both Chris and myself the x-ray, and the first thing he said was “now, you can see why Pam has so much pain in this knee – she has a lot of arthritis in there…and over here…and up over here…yes, and there too”. I felt vindicated…it’s not that I don’t trust Dr. Burnett – I know there isn’t anything to be done surgically yet – but Dr. Winston always makes me feel validated.
So, what does he want to do? He wants to inject the knee with Synvisc, a gel type solution that mimics the natural fluids around the knee. This will hopefully help relieve pain and help the knee move easier for at least 6 months, when another injection can be done. He’s also sending me for physiotherapy. And once the Botox is in, we’ll get that happening as well. So, all in all, a productive visit – just the way I like them!!! Oh, and as for Chris – he’s going to be a fantastic Doctor one day. Great bedside manner, excellent knowledge and he’s a total hunk!!! 🙂
Whew…I am worn out. I promise…I will start another post soon, because that’s not the end of the health issues…and I haven’t even BEGUN to tell you about the volunteer engagements I’m involved in…yes, I’m back into volunteering!!! Super happy and can’t wait to share with you all soon!
Thanks for reading and remember….There Is Always Hope!